WARNING MENTION OF CSA

Lately, i’ve (24M) been reflecting on my journey of bisexuality. I’ve come a long long way and I’m proud of myself for finally accepting my sexuality. I’m no longer ashamed about hooking up with women and men and I’m able to enjoy it. I finally came out publicly too. In my small Oklahoma town, that was freaking scary but I’ve been overwhelmed with support which took me off guard. Most people didn’t even really care!

TRIGGER WARNING DISCUSSION OF CSA

Something I’ve been particularly reflecting on is the effects of the CSA I suffered when I was little on my sexuality. I’ll preface this discussion by saying I’m ok now. Yes I suffered for years from it but I got EMDR treatment and still go to therapy. I no longer get flashbacks.

I was sexually abused by a family friend who was a man. Lately, I’ve been wondering if this affected my bisexuality. Yes, the whole experience was awful and I would never wish it on anybody. But maybe it opened up new desires, attractions, and pleasures that led me to be bisexual? I know the research on the relationship between CSA and sexuality is a VERY hot topic. The research I’ve read goes both ways. Some say there’s no effect. Others say there is for a similar reason I described.

I know this is a EXTREMELY sensitive topic. But I wanted to get y’all’s thoughts on the effect of CSA on sexuality and opinions on if it affected my own sexuality. I trust this sub and the community here enough to post this here so I ask you, what do you think?