30 M here and I’ve always been into guys and girls (currently in a relationship with a guy).

I don’t like being a typical masculine guy but it’s always just been easiest for me to fit in.

I’d love to be a more feminine version of myself but two questions:

1. Are there any women that really are attracted to feminine guys and if so what is that attraction like (genuine attraction, more of a fetish/fun but couldn’t actually date one, etc)

2. This is the only gay relationship I’ve been in but I’m feeling like I enjoyed relationships with women more. The issue is all the women I ever met weren’t into bi guys or feminine guys

Also, I feel like I’m not sure how to go about being more feminine. I feel like I missed the experiences as a teenager to explore that with peers and now it just feels odd to be exploring this as an adult when most people have themselves figured out.

I just realized number 2 wasn’t really a questions but I guess I just wanted to hear people’s thoughts.

Thanks in advance for any input!