Do you ever just sit with your thoughts and think…what if I tried the straight thing, because maybe I am straight and this was just all something that wasn’t real. Then you think that you’re never going to be able to do that because you’re always going to feel the way you feel right now. I can’t put the genie back into the bottle. I am attracted to the person. Doesn’t matter what parts they have.

Also, I’m also pretty dark and depressed right now so, I’m not in a good place. Just having those stupid deep thoughts.

I guess what I described was imposter syndrome? I don’t know. I’m just purely bisexual and no matter what, nothing can change that. I look back on my childhood and I realise I was then too. I’m just a late bloomer who was basically shown the way to get a degree, get married, have kids. No diversion. Stay on the straight and narrow. I did that. Now I’m living for my own happiness and prioritising.