So, I'm pretty sure I'm bisexual (with a very strong preference for women) although I've never been in a relationship. And the other day this memory from elementary school floated to the top of my head and now I'm conflicted about how to feel about it. Let's rewind back to elementary school. I was probably, ehh, probably 6? And I had this friend, we'll call her "A" So it was valentines Day and in traditional elementary school fashion, everyone was passing out shitty Walmart valentines Day cards and hard-ass candies from the bottom of their mom's purse. Well, I was sitting with A on the floor near the coat rack where we hung up our jackets and backpacks. We were talking, giggling a lot and we were really close to each other, I mean really close. Like a few inches away from each other's faces. I remember feeling this hard-to-describe feeling. Best I can describe it was a giddy joyous feeling from being near her. So later that day she gives me this snack. It was like a plastic cup with bread-like sticks that you dip in nutella. She cut out a picture of her face in the same of a heart and placed on the center of the cup with a message somewhere along the lines of: "Happy Valentines Day Spencer! Love: A" And I flat out refused to eat the nutella bread stick cup for like, 6 months, because her face was on it. I placed it in a cabinet and everytime I want to open my kitchen cabinet I would see her face and smile a little bit. I can't tell if I just really cared for my friend or if my gay ass had a crush on her and didn't know it.