So… I made a tinder profile and a bumble profile, and set my search to women only (I’m into men also but can’t deal with them in my dms right now)

Swiping through profiles, I found myself smiling at cute girls, laughing at their bios and jokes, feeling all fluttery in general, I put in my tinder bio that I was open to spicy time if we had a connection.

A girl on tinder DM’d me and one of her pics…… WHOO! 🥵

A couple others I found admiring their boobs or butt.

But this voice in my mind keeps saying things like “psh everyone appreciates a butt”. “Yeah you’re a little turned on but who wouldn’t be when they see a half naked woman?” “You have butterflies because it’s exciting and new and there’s dopamine” “you’re not really into women, you just like the dopamine rush and you’re a little sex starved right now” “anybody can be horny by this”

So I guess my question now is….. why am I thinking these things??? How can I be feeling some types of ways looking at these pics but still think it doesn’t mean anything? I literally just got off in the shower twice after thinking about women, but still am like “nah I’m not bi”.

Soooo what is wrong with me 😅

Edit to add: I do also enjoy the idea of going on dates with girls, just walking on the boardwalk holding hands, or going to a comedy show and seeing them smile all cute ☺️ so it’s not only sexual attraction