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Hi all,
Hope everyone is having a great Easter weekend.
Myself (M40) and my wife (40) have been together for 13 years, married for 10. Weāve got two kids. In January, she told me she regrets never having had a sexual relationship with a woman - sheās fooled around with girls a bit when she was younger, but nothing serious or past first base.
Itās rocked me more than I thought it would. Iām desperate to support her, I want her to be happy and fulfilled but also, selfishly, I donāt want her having a fling with someone else as NRE is powerful and I suppose Iād be jealous that a) Iām not part of the excitement or b) Iām steady and reliable rather than new and exciting.
I adore my wife, she still gives me butterflies but she says that where we are now; kids, mortgage, no sleep and general life pressures that thatās a stage of our relationship sheās past. She says she loves me more than ever and sees us together in 20 years time.
I should also add that she says it may never happen as she doesnāt want an internet hook-up, or to do anything with someone she already knows as a friend. We live in a middle-sized town and, with the aforementioned life pressures, itās probably remote that sheāll find someone who fits the Venn diagram.
Anyway, life goes on and Iām my own worst enemy from a point of view of destructive thoughts. Despite the reassurances, I over think everything and I suppose Iām not really in the moment that much when weāre together like I find myself over analysing her behaviour āis she being too quiet?ā āDoes that mean sheās going off me?ā Etc.
She says she wonāt do anything that Iām uncomfortable with but who can say whether she would grow to resent me if I blocked her? Who can say whether I would resent myself if I didnāt? More of the overthinking there I guess. I just want to do whatās best for us in the longer term.
Anyway, I wondered whether there are any books out there that have good advice for people in my boat? Weāve talked about it all a lot, and thereās nothing else to say until thereās something new to say. In the meantime I wondered what I can learn that could be useful.
Thanks in advance!
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