It doesn’t seem to matter whether I’m high or low, my anger is something that is consistent and persistent. I’m in psychodynamic therapy twice a week to work out issues from my childhood and how it triggers me as an adult, and I’m also on medication. Everything has been helpful with my depression and manic episodes, I really can’t complain.

Yesterday my boyfriend and I got into an argument that was very petty (but it still triggered something in me) and I hit my steering wheel so hard with the heel of my hand I damn near broke my wrist. I instantly felt relief from those overwhelming feelings. I’ve had a history of hurting myself so I won’t hurt others, and I’ve used it as a release for the overstimulation I feel. However, it’s been years since I’ve reacted that way.

Luckily, my boyfriend is very understanding and doesn’t criticize or judge me, he’s just really concerned about me. How do you guys handle anger and anxiety that just boils over and explodes? Any tips would be amazing.