I’ve always been a bit disconnected when it came to friendship and have just recently (a year ago) gotten 2 best friends. How do I not push them away? Before I became friends with them I never had any social obligations which stopped me from withdrawing from the world and keeping to myself.

I’m just unsure about how to navigate through friendships. I know that my peers are always hanging out with their friends and besties but I’m in no rush to be with mine. I had to come clean to them about my diagnosis a little while ago after I ghosted them for the I think 4th time since we became friends. Currently, I feel like I’m on the verge of ghosting them again and can’t stop myself.

I’m a home body and don’t mind if I go out once every month. But my 2 friends are the type that want to be together all the time and after a meet up they’re already planning on meeting up again the next day! Luckily for me, they’re cousins so I know that if I can’t be with them then they’ll atleast have eachother 😭 I know it’s not right but that’s just how I’m wired. How do I unwire myself? I’ve been on medication for a week and I have more energy but my mindset is still the same. Should I give the medicine more time to kick in or is it something that I have stand up to improve on my own?

Has anyone else figured out how to deal with this?