Tldr - jamble of words So ive been here numerous times but i have something to ask / say. After being on meds for 2 months now it idk has changed a lot. Its lifted my depression ten fold but that it is just very manageable now. But it has not solved any other problems. I also have adhd. Upon looking back at my past and current i dont nessarily fit the symptoms in my experience. Merely i experience them on a daily occurrence. Being "jumpy" yeah hi even why im depressed im still jumpy whenever theres positive things or even when im just ig happy from a song or sum... "talking faster than usual about a lot of things" haha thats just bc im excited or just bc im anxious that someone is going to speak over me when its something im interested in. It leads me to run out of breath sometimes... "less need for sleep" like im tired i just dont know what time it is... Yeah i feel like a super person but never like doing so to interrupt others? Like when a good ass song comes ill feel like prince or sum lol.... this is just the beginning of the daily occurrence.

So heres the run down of my day to day. Wake up at 8qm and lay in bed for an hour either just thinking or on my phone but wide awake. I take my meds at 9am then drink coffee (double espresso or equivalent) and get food (sometimes) afterwards. Drinking coffee makes me feel good, happy and normal. Then for 3-4 hours ill find something for myself to do either small or big. At 12-1pm (depending if i forget or get too fixated on something) i take my second dose. Then i try to do something big or small (going out, taking photos, driving, etcetc) at around 3-5 i start feeling tired and depressed but not full blown. Im not sure how to explain it. But mind u I was very energetic or fully awake the moment i wake up.. but 3-5 i feel tired and the need to sleep (before taking meds i would cope with this by smoking weed) but after taking meds ive stopped smoking weed during the day (been about a month now) but i used it to cope with my depression. 6-8 still in a low mood but am somewhat awake again (if i dont sleep) then around 10-11 when i try to sleep i get a huge burst of energy lmao but am tired. To cope with the random thoughs, energetic af out of nowhere, i smoke weed to fall asleep. And it works wonders. But my brain does not know how to shut up ever and my memory is very bad. Im not even sure what i wrong in this thing. But everything ive said happens on a daily occurrence even before taking meds. The main difference was I was very depressed through out the day but still had spiked of energy in the morning. Depression doesnt hit but carries on later depending on the environment. Joyful = happy sad things = depressed. Bc of one thing that will be all that ill be thinking about. Uhh please tell me this all makes sense.