I just wanna vent a bit i hope you guys can comment too(english is not my first language so i apologise)

I have been depressed since october and having mided episode. I have a well paying job but i just stop going for almost 2 weeks now. I didnt tell my bos or anyone i just stop.

I am currently in so much debt and no money to pay for rent. Living in a country where mental illness still a taboo topic and theres no disability payment like in the US.

I believe in myself and my skills to get another job but currently i cant. I cant even go to my doctor because i am depressed and i havent showered in a week. I smell funky and i feel disgusting but i cant do anything about it. I havent brush my hair for so long over all my physical and mental health is in the gutter now.

I feel hopeless, but im hopefull that this is just temporary and this might come back but wont last forever. I need to believe that.

I need some motivation and some kind words from fellow bipolar 2. Thanks for reading. ❤️❤️