Had a falling out w my family. During the falling out, mom told me exactly how her n everyone else in my family truly feels about me. It’s heart breaking 💔 if I knew that they felt that way about me, I would have been gone from their lives years ago. I’m embarrassed thinking I was going around them all these years n they truly all think horrible things about me n apparently talk about me behind my back. She told me she wishes she would have got rid of me (abortion) bc I’ve been a miserable person my entire life. Well i have a DNA test proving that my brain does not make the correct chemicals that I need to be happy :( From the time I was 12-17 she had 3 psychotic doctors tell her I had ADHD and depression but she refused to treated either one. It’s not my fault I’ve had depression my entire life. I also have major learning disabilities which really makes finding a job a difficult. Despite all of that I’ve done nothing but survive on my own from the time I was 23-35. I was diagnosed w bipolar 2 at 31 and my life has been even harder since then which she threw that in my face too. Calling me crazy and such. She had a mentally disabled child that she has hated n thought horrible things about for 35 years now. She has called me names and told me that my dad doesn’t love me as much as he should bc I remind him of his family he doesn’t speak to anymore (ever since he met her 38 years ago) she did nothing my spank me as a child bc I would throw tantrums which I had untreated mental illness. U kno? She threw everything up in my face that she knows about me. Calling me a fat cow. (She’s anorexic) I gained 50lbs bc of my bipolar meds.

My two ex coworkers which I thought were my true friends were telling each other everything I would tell them. (I told one of them one thing about myself that I didn’t tell the other one n she went n told the other one which made her mad at me) They also were telling everyone at work my personal business (marriage issues. Husband is an alcoholic which causes n made me miss a lot of work) ever since I haven’t worked there. I don’t have them either now which breaks my heart too 💔 I have no friends or family. My phone is completely silent besides my husband 💔 if I died today, no one would care besides my husband 😞