I’ve always been emotional but by me being manic, kept me pushing forward. Since starting my journey with therapy and meds I first was put on Prozac. It made me feel horrible so I took an leave of absence from my job. My psychiatrist didn’t fill out my medical documents and only gave me a return to work note. so I didn’t get paid for the whole month that I was out. I was switched to Zoloft right before I took my LOA and I felt like it would work for me. However during my leave I just felt I needed to do something at all times like shopping or going out to eat. I gained 10-15lbs and I spent a lot of money uncontrollably not even worried about bills or anything. I switched doctors and was recently put on Lamotrigine. I’ve only been on this for about two weeks going into my third while tapering down from 150mg of Zoloft. I feel like everyone who was my friend doesn’t speak to me anymore either because I’m completely different to them or because we had a falling out due to my emotions and them not understanding. I got into a relationship with someone who told me I should try to get on meds and therapy to begin with (even though I probably would have done it myself anyway). He broke up with me and left me for someone else I’m sure because of my journey on meds. I just feel like I’m all alone in this. I’m losing everything and Idk if this is a good or bad thing but I talk to my therapist on the 17th of this month. I just feel like my life is falling apart.