I am so worried right now. I just recently lost my health insurance and we are moving to a different state so I can't apply for state benefits until we move Saturday. I've been paranoid as Fuck to the point where I convinced myself my room was gonna catch fire so I unplugged everything in my room except my phone charger and a fan. I write down notes when I'm not doing well and these were my notes while I was super paranoid: Feet hurt from being zapped by electricity. Left foot is microwave, right foot is grill" the microwave thing just kept repeating in my head over and over again. Also the last few nights I'm hearing the sound of talking in my head when Im trying to sleep. You know when you're in a crowded restaurant and you're not listening to the tables around you but there's that constant hum of chatter? That's been in my head when I'm trying to sleep and in the middle of the night when I wake up for no fucking reason. When I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder it's because I had this feeling for YEARS after I smoked weed where it felt like I was high. I was seeing things (mostly facial features) morph in front of me and seeing people where there were no people. I was so paranoid that people were drugging my food that I lost 50lbs in a few months. It's getting increasingly harder to go to sleep at night. I'm so worried that I'm about to completely lose it. The stress from moving is making me an ugly person. Really ugly. I just took my prn and I'm about to take my night meds to just knock myself out. Ahhh...