I have to say sometimes my mania can be a good thing. Being able to conquer fears being the only good thing. I'm talking being able to go to the dentist, but not only that, getting the process started for fixing my teeth after years and years of neglect. But not only that having an emergency tooth removal with only some numbing and a yank. Something I could never do and any dentistry was strictly under general anaesthesia. If only I could have the benefits like these without the negatives like impulsive spending and shit that's detrimental like drug use/abuse and risky behaviours. Something else I conquered recently was getting the COVID jabs without fainting and being a big boi. That alone is a huge feat for me, but then I also was like fuck it I'm getting a bloodtests for the first time in a decade. Went in and got full bloods done without fainting. You know your boi treated himself with a maccys hotcakes and frappe for brekky that morning. Just thought I'd post now the numbing agent has worn off and I don't look like I had a stroke. Booked in to get wisdom teeth removed in a month. Which is under anaesthesia but I'm glad I got one other tooth removed to know what the process after is like. Basically helping remove any anxiety. Plus the poor dentist had to drill and hammer and pull out all the bloody tools to get this one tooth out so I know if I need work, as long as they numb and don't go too far back with the tools I'll be sweet. Popping a valium might've helped. I'm not sure. But I went safe and took a 2mg tab just in case. Only meant for sleep but because it was under the guidance of the dentist he was happy to provide a note saying yea had to get tooth removed and op took 1 2mg tab just to help. If any issues feel free to call. If only mania didn't also involve buying a brand new car and suffering the consequences 2 weeks into a job I later left 6 months in. Anyways off to bed. Had to write out my shit so don't expect comments or upvotes or shit. Just find writing on Reddit helps keep my blogging/journaling to the point