I'm taking a lot of medication to be at a point where I'm somewhat stable. However, the crime comes from anti-psychotics, I'm on two near the maximum doses. Latuda 120mg and Seroquel 600mg. I don't want to give up on these two drugs because they deadened my hallucinations, helped with anxiety and got rid of my mixed and depressive episodes. I also no longer have psychotic episodes or paranoia or delusions.

My emotions are so numb I can barely feel them. I used to cry on a daily basis and now I don't remember the last time I did. My sense of motivation is completely dead to the point of avolition. Even if I manage to finish something, I feel no reward whatsoever, it's just blank. Pleasure is so muted that I don't even know if I'll ever feel it again. I feel dumber and my creativity has been muddled. What used to be so easy at work is now a big difficult chore.

Anyone else in the same situation? I can't give up on these medications but they numbed me down.