Not sure I’m actually bipolar. Psych said maybe, I have been on lamictal and Cymbalta for almost a year and was like a new person for the first time in my life.

Had a sad convo with husband last week, nothing life shattering but it made me feel worthless and I cried for the first time in a really long time. Like really cried. Fall asleep on the bathroom floor crying.

I felt like I had to just feel it. I decided no more meds, fuck it. After 2 full days today my head was full of zaps and nauseous. I couldn’t stand it anymore so I took them. But I feel so broken.

Idk why I’m posting this. I guess just hoping someone will understand. I feel like nobody can. I feel hopeless, like my whole life is fake. And laying on the bathroom floor crying is the only thing that’s real.