I was diagnosed a while back with bipolar 2 however lately, I’ve been experiencing longer manic episodes as well as started hallucinating, hearing things and becoming delusional. Most days end up with weird laughing attacks that I cant stop or talking so fast that people have to grab my shoulders and tell me to breathe. I’ve also had the overwhelming urge to start doing things randomly and end up rocking or some other tick to satisfy the urge to do something. I’ve picked up smoking and I’ve started excessively drinking and stopped sleeping as much. My hyper sexual episodes are taking over my life and I’m so close to cheating on my partner because I’m not myself at all. I’m not in reality and I’m dissociating so much. I’m 23 and I have been working on my career and my bipolar is getting harder to manage despite being on medication. I’m stuck and scared of what I could become and really could use some advice