My boyfriend’s a porn addict. Like very bad, and taking it further than just porn to actually reach out to people for nudes online and having “relations”. I found out a long way into our relationship. Obviously told him to stop, but i feel heartbroken about it. It sent me into such a bad state for so long and 8 months later I don’t seem to be any better. Got bad into an eating disorder and very unstable episodes all the time. For a while i’ll feel so angry and hurt that I hate him, other times I feel responsible and very sorry for myself, but also hate myself for it like it’s my fault or not good enough. Even developed an eating disorder. he has honestly tried to help and stop but i do look through his phone sometimes and I see the activity, it’s not personal anymore but whatever porn i see now triggers me extremely. I don’t know if I’ll ever get over this, it’s ruined my self esteem and ego. And maybe not directly but it’s definitely affecting my everyday life, I feel unmotivated and like I can’t do anything right, it’s been affecting my studies I just wanted I guess validation to see if i’m just being insane and irrational? I told my friends about this and they all think i should have long broken up. But i’m sure you all know that when you have that “one person” it’s extremely hard to just drop them. Thank you for reading if anyone bothered haha🫶