I am 30 and as I get older I continue to struggle more and more with manic episodes.

I really think the internet has been a positive thing in my life in many aspects, and when I'm feeling healthy, it's a tool for good in my life. I've learned a lot about myself and the world, and I normally don't overdo it on screen time.

When I am in a manic state however, the internet becomes an instrument of chaos in my life. I will talk with 100s of people on websites like reddit. I'll spend hours and HOURS online, wasting full days.

I never feel good about the conversations I have, and I don't even feel like myself.

It would be hard/impossible to cut the internet out of my life....but sometimes I want to at least try.

If you're struggling with this, just know you're not alone.