My psychiatrist is still figuring out if I have bipolar or schizoaffective. But waiting is so painful. I work as a nurse in an emergency department. And I see patients who come in with police and ambulance and are experiencing things like hallucinations and they are looked after and admitted and diagnosed quickly. I’ve been experiencing worse for months. And I’m doing so much to keep it under control. A part of me wishes it was me in that stretcher being brought in. Being seen by a whole mental health team etc.

i did try going to hospital a few months ago but they made things worse and sent me home. They didn’t help at all. I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist for a few months and has put me on a mood stabilizer which does help a little but I still experience hallucinations etc.

I’ve been in multiple psychosis the past few months. And I don’t know how I’m surviving. There are so many times I should’ve been taken to hospital but I feel like no one cares enough. Which makes me feel so alone

I guess I just feel like I need to call for help. But I don’t know how. I go so insane sometimes I realize I should be in a mental health unit. But I don’t want to go to an emergency department because I doubt they’ll take me seriously since my diagnosis isn’t on my record yet. And the people I live with (my parents) are the type to not care if I seem not normal, and just tell me that I’m making it up.