Welp, think getting my new bike sent me into a manic phase. I've ridden about 100 miles in the last 48 hours.... I have only slept about 4 hours in that time... I haven't ridden a bicycle since mid May, I should be a lot more tired than I am. Especially since I was only riding 5 miles max a day before my bike was stolen. There are other signs I am presenting that Im not going to talk about. So it's not just a fluke. It just happened overnight. Got the bike Thursday evening. Went to sleep around midnight, woke up at 2AM Friday morning. Same thing last night.
The thing that I'm torn about at the moment is that I have my monthly check in with my Dr. on Tuesday. I don't fully trust her yet(HUGE Trust issues with LEO's & Medical personnel)We have only been working together for 2 months. I'm worried what she will do if I tell her the truth. Last time I was manic was back in January. Followed by 3 months of being stableish. Then depression until yesterday. I went off my meds in mid May. Just started meds again 2 months ago. On the other hand, it will help my disability case🤔. On the other hand, I've learned how to survive without disability, so do I really need it? Is disability worth the chance of losing freedom🤔?