But it didn't work.

Recently, I've been getting more headaches than usual. As of last year, I never felt so lonely, but after all that I'd been through the last few years prior, I had never felt happier to be living alone. I'm at a job where I don't like half the people that I work with because pushiness triggers me. Sometimes I just want to take a long vacation, but I want to move out of the place I had been for most of my life for good. I haven't been in a good relationship with anyone in years. I've been constantly pulling my hair out, leaving clumps of hair on the floor for me to sweep up. I'm tired of living like this.

I feel like at work, every time I open my mouth and say something, I come off as aggressive and one time the other day, one of my managers called me "disrespectful", which hurt my feelings. I know where exactly I want to go, but I'm stuck.

Every day for the last year has been a constant struggle just getting out of bed and doing chores and whatnot, and sometimes I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up.