I have mostly depressive phases that have been mostly shrunk to the periodic hour long episodes since I had added lurasidone to the lithium. For several months I finally got a sense of what stable means and thought I could finally start living my life, hoping that the episodes would go away entirely as my dosage was titrated.

Then the past week it was daily episodes until it finally got turned on it's head and I had two days of straight hell, with the occasional hour long blip of feeling okay.

I'm thankful and relieved that I'm back to where I was again, but I'm also scared that everything will go bad again. This is the longest I've gotten into winter without falling apart, but maybe it's just a matter of time.