Have been in a stupor the last full month, drowning in extremely negative intrusive thoughts, thinking everyone hates me and talks about how lame I am. Too confused to perform even the most basic tasks at work or help people with simple directions, and packing up my apartment to move has been hell. Doing things compulsively and unsustainably. My doctor was NOT addressing this or that Abilify was not working and so I found a new doctor who changed me to Vraylar and not even 3 days on it, my head has been clearing up. I feel like I can relax. I can actually perform tasks at hand without feeling like anxiety is going to make me explode because I don’t understand what’s going on. I knew nobody was talking about me but I actually feel a calm and solid belief in that. I can actually consider planning and executing things rather than doing things purely as reaction to anxiety. I’m still recovering from a psychotic break due to mania and I constantly worry I’ll never recover, but this is a win :)