Can't just be me. Here I am, I can see the whole trainwreck coming, and I thought I was already in one. But the person who said I wouldn't have to be alone for this - I scared him away already. Hasn't even been a week. I've got these addictions and traumas and I can feel the damage to come. It was almost bearable knowing I had someone.

I've always gone through this shit alone, but you think you'll have something and you're sure and then suddenly you don't have it. It's tipping me even further along

Don't need chats but thanks. Just know that I can't be the only one who has been at this point. I've pushed everyone away and now I get to do this dance by myself again