I met my new psychiatrist last March and got prescribed the (20mg) Paroxetine - (500 mcg) Alprazolam combo. After two weeks, we met again to check for progress, and she said to wait for my new prescription. I've been following up for nearly a week now, but got no replies. Because of that (plus money issues), I've not been able to take it for a day now. Today will be the second. Given that she also ignored my previous emails, this made me consider quitting her care and moving on to a new doctor.

For context, I got to meet this new doctor because of my company's welfare program wherein they basically have a healthcare partner give us three free sessions before paying. I used up my first with a psychologist because their system requires a recommendation from a psychologist before meeting with a psychiatrist.

The thing is, this doc and I do communicate well during sessions, but I feel like since I'm not a paying patient, I'm not being given the attention I require. I have no proof of this yet but I do not want to reach that point with this doctor because whatever their reasons were for not replying, I should at least get my prescription. But yeah, no, I haven't. I've even asked the assistance of not one, but two staff to help me reach her but they haven't gone back to me with anything at all. I also checked my spam folders and whatnot to see if I missed anything, but nope.

So yeah, once I have money, I'll be seeing a new doctor and for a price that's more manageable for me. The previous one is doable with my disability card, but it is still a significant dip in the pockets for me. Ah well. I just needed to get that out. Maybe I'm being hasty, but I've had nearly a month and a half to observe patterns in our communication, and this one ain't just it for me because it's just feeding my anxiety with the delays.

I guess I'm annoyed because my old doctor (the one who correctly diagnosed me with BD Type 1) was really an effective communicator, and I only had to follow up once to get my prescription. So yeah, I'm comparing because the level of care I'm used to is different. I quit that doctor despite how effective she was with me because my parents were strongly in denial about my diagnosis and we compromised by finding a doctor that none of us knew (they previously tried to force me to a creepy doctor). So yeah, sigh.

Living with this disorder... it really isn't easy. Sometimes, I hate it. Sometimes, I feel like I wouldn't have discovered who I really was if not for it, and sometimes, it bores me. Most of the time, it's just exhausting.

TL/DR: Switching to a new doc because my prescription is delayed and they don't reply to my emails