Nobody tries to stop me

Im frustrated with the people I consider close. I feel like they watch me ruin my life and think or say “oh he is so quirky.” For example my last manic episode I painted the interior of my house black, but not even with normal paint I used shitty arts and crafts acrylic paint. It took me days and nobody tried to talk me out of it. I thought at the time It was a good way to prevent robberies. Now I have shitty black paint all over my walls that I can’t paint over. I have to scrub it off then re paint. Anyway that’s just one example. I have many others and nobody ever says anything they just laugh while I am struggling most. I’m extremely tight lipped about my diagnosis and try to cover for myself. So I can’t blame them completely.

Because of this I decided to always say something if I think someone is manic. If they are depressed I am empathetic and try to do whatever I can. If I see someone destroying their life then I tell them so. I’m mad that people don’t say anything when I am open and loud about destroying my life in one way or another.