I apologize for posting twice in one day, and for the topics being somewhat similar. I just figured that this is the perfect forum to talk about this in. My earlier post really wasn’t about me as I said, it was more a theoretical question. This post is really about me, and this is actually how I feel on a regular basis.

I have always been attracted to guys with large dicks, but finding a guy to have a relationship with who is also bigger is not really that easy. Meeting someone, getting to know them, connecting with them, all while not asking about or knowing their size; It’s basically a huge game of chance. And for someone like myself who is only turned on sexually by well endowed men, this is one of the most nerve wracking things for me.

The last thing I want to happen is to fall for a great guy, only to have him be less than ideal below the belt and for me and him to be put in an impossible situation. I don’t want to break anyone’s heart, still less destroy the confidence and self esteem of someone who is, by every other measure, wonderful. I don’t want to be or feel shallow, and I also don’t want to feel like I might be alone for a long time still. Put it this way, I’m 26 and I have never had one boyfriend yet. Sure I’ve had hookups, but they don’t really mean anything, a guy is just as likely to throw you aside as he is to talk to you afterwards. I guess I might be too nervous, both of hurting someone else and of being hurt or disappointed myself.

Thanks for taking time to read this. Any thoughts? Advice?