I've had my odd bouts of mum guilt but mainly managed to dodge that bullet but Christmas is bringing a whole load of guilt this year. I went back to work last month so I am paying for my 7 month old to be in full time nursery which combined with bills means I don't have much left at all. Also 6 months came with a lot of costs (highchair, weaning, up a clothes size, up a sleep sack size, moving into a cot). I know a 7 month old won't remember or care but I seem to have set myself up to prove that I can do a good Christmas for my baby, I stupidly feel like if I screw up I am setting a precedent for the future. Everything seems to have gone wrong planning wise, we've run out of money so couldn't do half the things we planned, we only got her a couple of bath toys and that's all we could afford, the christmas market we were going to go to clashes with me having to work overtime at the weekend, a load of our decorations got crumpled and broken in storage, my dad fell out with his extended family so half my family wont be at christmas dinner, we are spending christmas day with my in laws who are annoying, my work clashes with all the mum and baby Christmas activities and I found out today that a screw up with the garden centre means we won't get our Christmas tree and I won't get the refund in time I get a new tree/most of our local garden centres have already sold out so we are stuck with the old broken plastic tree that's been crumpled in the shed for years. It's all materialistic crap that I know shouldn't matter but I just feel like a bit of a mum failure this year.