I need to just vent I think. My baby is 3 months old and I had issues bonding at first, her birth was very traumatic. I felt like I needed to get to know my daughter before I could really feel that deep love. I got to a place where I felt good about my bond with her, she started to smile, we got into a rhythm in the day, she sleeps more so I feel more rational and together. But the last week I had a wobble, I went to stay with family and she bonded so well with my dad, they smiled and she didn't cry with him. It was lovely to see but I started to question if my bond with her was the same, then while out the other day my husband made her laugh. While with me she's just been hard work and really ratty. Today at coffee with my in laws my FIL went off to walk her round the garden centre and show her the plants, normally I wouldn't mind but it got me on edge, he then went to push the pram when we left and tried to rock her to sleep as she was tired. I felt really uncomfortable at this and wanted to snatch the pram back. I feel like I am in this downward spiral of worry that she loves everyone else but not me and the more they comfort her she'll love me even less (crazy I know) we're about to go on holiday with my in laws and my parents which already makes me tense because we've never done it before, I am worried I'm going to end up blowing up especially if they keep up the super over grabby grandparent thing. (I know im being irrational but has anyone else felt the same way?)