So I do know if this is beta material exactly. I mean a woman sexually controlled and forced to submit must be a beta, right? I'm an attractive female and consider myself just as attractive if not more so then the women I know. I've certainly caught a lot of glances from men. I've always hidden behind my tougher female friends. They've always seemed more comfortable interacting with people where I tend to be quiet and shy. They help me move heavy things, or walked me to my car, and I love it. I love women that look out for smaller, shy females that aren't as capable as them. If only they knew my nasty thoughts about them. I consider myself a beta because I bottom for dominant people at the drop of a hat but tend to be pretty independent and hold my own. It gets exhausting but that's a different story. Not a sexy beta story.

Anyway. My friends ask why I don't go to bars with them and try to meet men and why I've dated some men and decided not to continue. I'm attractive and sweet and sexy and smart they tell me but they don't know how extreme my sexual fantasies are and how I refuse to have boring normal sex. I masterbate very often. I work a lot, both days and nights but when I can, I go at myself like an animal. Coming 6 or 7 times a day. Edging myself like crazy, bringing myself to the point of drooling and mentally going blank. It occured to me, I would be more inclined to date and go with them to meet men if I couldn't sexually satisfy myself as often as I do. I wish I could scream at them that I need someone to take away that right from me. To not allow me to cum and give myself pleasure. Dont get me wrong. Nothing comes to being with another person but I have such a vivid imagination and such sexy dreams I can entertain myself.

But what I want so badly is to be put in chastity and punished for not making myself available to these nice vanilla fellas trying to meet a nice girl. I want a dominant man to give me the treatment I need. Which is to beg and plead and drool for release. To not be allowed to be independent. Nothing turns me on more then a man having access to my pussy if wanted (or not) but not allowing me too. I could never do this online. I'd need a person because I don't always listen but for now I'll fuck myself until I pass out from exhaustion thinking maybe one day I'll wake to the sound of someone locking my pussy away knowing my goose is fucking cooked.