So even though I (35f) have a 24/7 free use agreement with my husband (39m), I’ve been encouraging him to see other women for about a year now. While I am a woman typically viewed as strong and attractive in my everyday life, I love being a desperate, dripping slut available to him at all times. He loves keeping me this way too. However, in meeting this need of his, I am also denying him the strong classy woman of his fantasies. In becoming what he wants, I have also become less than what he deserves, and while he would never admit that, I know it’s true. My husband deserves to fuck a real woman, not a used up, desperate slut.

We started off with me blowing him while he watches porn or live shows. He thoroughly enjoyed that. Over time, my pussy has slowly been replaced by my mouth. The only time he fucks my pussy anymore is when I’m sleeping and my mouth isn’t available (I never want him to have to wait to bust a nut and he won’t interfere with my rest because my job and the money it brings in is important). I am so used to him using me while I sleep now that I don’t even wake up anymore. I only know I’ve been fucked because of the cum dripping from my pussy in the morning.

Sometimes he’ll laugh at me because I came during my sleep while he fucked me and nothing but my pussy ever even moved. He says the only orgasms I deserve are the ones only he gets to enjoy, and he is so right. My body exists only for his pleasure, and keeping me denied makes me much more useful to him.

And lately he’s told me it isn’t enough. While he used to only watch other women while fucking my throat, he now says he needs other women to get off while fucking me. I knew it was only a matter of time. He’s used up my pussy and I’ve degraded myself for him so much that I no longer get him hard. He proved it to me last night. As we laid down for bed and I prepared for our nightly ritual (sucking him until he’s drained and keeping it warm until he falls asleep) he pushed my head down to his soft dick and I took all of him into my mouth. 15 minutes in and he was still soft. Turns out he had left his phone in the other room, so he had me stop and bring it to him. Less than a minute of having his phone in his hand and he was rock hard. This turned me on so much, knowing he was truly only using me to jack off while he lusted after the women he really wanted. And this is just the most recent in a string of incidents where it took another woman to get him hard. I am finally becoming the worthless cumdump I was always meant to be.

I’ve been looking hard for a girlfriend for him so he can have someone he actually enjoys fucking again. Someone strong, independent, and beautiful to be his equal in bed, someone he can spoil while I function as his housekeeper, babysitter, and cumdump between dates. We’ve had a few promising leads…but haven’t found her yet.

If you are interested in helping me reach my full potential as a beta, either online or in person (south central ky, us) feel free to dm me for more information (28-55). Meanwhile, I’m going to go edge to the thought of my husband balls deep in a worthy pussy, knowing I’m one step closer to being my best beta self.