I’ve been taking X basically daily coming up on 2 years. Mix in some kpin on there. The only reason I still take it because I’ve obviously built a tolerance and need it or else I could be in trouble and get incredibly anxious. I’m aware of what I’ve gotten myself into. Everyday that goes by I hate myself for it. I wonder who I would be without them. I think I’m afraid to find out but I can’t keep doing this to myself.

I’m taking this step by step because it’s easily to get overwhelmed thinking about every single detail. I need to stabilize it in my system for 7-10 days, is the goal. After that I will decrease .75% for the following week. And keep track of how I feel. And unfortunately, my doctor is unaware I have added X into the mix. So I can’t really discuss this with a professional. Any encouragement stories or encouraging advice would be greatly appreciated. I’m scared and already anxious just thinking of this journey I’m about to embrace. I’m tired of hating myself for taking this medication that I know is only hurting me, but I feel so deep in the hole I’ve dug.