my tolerance is getting so high rn I might be genuinely cooked. I’ve struggled with benzos on and off ever since I tried them for the first time at 17, 21 now. im starting to accept that I might need to be on them for life. my life is insanely lonely rn and im so isolated but xanax has always been my one true fix. weed doesn’t cut it anymore. Xanax stops the constant intrusive thoughts and crushing existential dread. Don’t start with ‘healthy life habits’! ‘exercice’! ‘go see friends’! I’m a deeply fucked human that cannot truly connect with people and I don’t have a place in society. Anyway my tolerance is getting higher, rn im in a bad place, I take them a lot more often. im so so so fucking irritable and I get mad when I take 1mg and that it doesn’t even make me feel anything when that used to be enough to put me to sleep. Idk im just ranting im fucking cooked I’m so LONELY and it’s all my fault. genuinely a bartard waste of space. I’ve stashed my prescriptions from when I was taking them less so rn im set for a while but I’ll have to beg my doctor to give me a refill when this stash runs out because im abusing them now and there’s no way back I accepted that im fucked. They’re the only fuckin thing that make me not want to kill myself