I did Alprazolam (The KSALOL, Galenika ones) for a while, some months regularly. Then they stopped working, and started giving me anxiety instead. They used to give me euphoria. I used to mix a couple mgs xans with some beer, and I'd feel good as fuck. Eventually, as mentioned, that stopped and I just felt like shit on them, so I stopped for some months. I tried other things during that time, but not benzos, I stayed away from benzos. I got scared by them, as the xans had started to give me anxiety instead. Not to mention, it was a waste of money.

However, I got my hands on some Valium, by Galenika as well. Last week or so. I first tried them, freaked out for some reason, then i threw the rest of that blister pack away, but now I'm back home, safe and alone and I can be myself and be high without being paranoid about anyone noticing, so i mixed it with beer (like i used ti), and I feel like i used to when i first started mixing beer and xans. It feels amazing, I feel great, delusional and high. I don't understand exactly why I like the feeling but I get all creative on it, and I start to play music and stuff, which is cool I guess.

I also get all journal-ish, where I literally write down everything I think, so I can compare it to when I'm sober, just to see what the difference is like. I didn' think Valium was gonna hit as well as it did. I thought it was gonna hit kist like the xans started feeling like after a while.

I'm enjoying this. Just being able to relax and do nothing for a while. Journal, research about drugs (which is a huge interest for me for some reason) and listen to music in absolute peace. It's nice, when you need a break to wind down. I def abused it before, but it's nice to feel the way I did in the very start again. Just to get a little break from everything, and to get to be weird and high for a little while. As long as I stay strict about being responsible.

I feel like I might be yapping too much, like I am delusional. But that is okay, I'll be delusional for a while then go back to sober, smart me and do good and healthy stuff. I just missed this feeling. This initial benzo feeling. I missed it so much, It's so amazing to feel it again, as I never thought I would lol.

I feel super great, do y'all think itäs because i mixed it with beer? And don't worry guys, I am aware of the risks, I do my research before i take stuff. I try to be as responsible as possible, but honestly, If you've mixed beer with benzos before, you know just what I am feeling right now and just how great it is. I don't know why really, but benzos alone can never be as great as benzos with beer. With beer, it makes me happy. Without it, it just makes me feel weird.

Feel good, people! Have a great day or whatever it might be! :-)