Yesterday took, for the first time, a high dose of Xanax (pharma) with a few bers. 6mg in total.

I felt the best relaxation in the world. Life was so much positive, gloomy, IDK, that pink clouds effect so many described.

But they made me much more sociable, good time with my wife, if she'd get angry because I was wasted I'd rather be comprehensive and calm her down.

I understand that, maybe, to get barred out you might need to have higher doses but, how high? Like 10mg? That is nuts!

Anyways, dosing aside, how in the earth could violence and the urge to get yourself arrested for stealing or doing stupid shit could arise from such relaxation and chill high?

I understand blacking out you get no recollections due to memory impairment but you're still you, is bullshit that you're a zombie, is still you, but you just cant form new memories at that time.

Does it have to do with your personality and how impulsive / violent you might be without meds?

Or is just like you become an absolute stupid and agressive zombie, no matter what, at higher doses?