I have taken benzos on and off for the past few years, but only took them seriously for several months last year (Bromazolam and Flubromazepam).

I tapered off both of them using Flubromazepam, spent several months in withdrawals, and several times (maybe a day or two here and there) used Bromazolam out of desperation. About two weeks I made a mistake on jumping back on daily Bromazolam.

I have since been trying to taper using Bromazolam (since Flubromazepam is seemingly unavailable) which has been very difficult.

I take about 1.5-2mg of Bromazolam (0.2mg x 5 per day)

I am now finding that larger doses of Bromazolam actually make me feel more depressed/in severe withdrawal... Severe panic and crying attacks, etc... It's like paradoxical anxiety... What could be the cause?

Agmatine seems to help somewhat.

I should mention that I had also been taking (but stopped about two weeks ago) Bretanezil for the past year (nightly) @ ~1mg

So you can see I'm all over the place with potential gabaergic 'damage'.

My plan is to taper using Bromonordiazepam (if it ever arrives), and then make a Flumazenil sublingual PG solution and hopefully restore myself back as much as I can. And then hopefully (all wishful thinking) one day Imidazenil reemerges (I tried Redwindresearch's stuff and it was legit) and I can get my life back (I'll happily spend the rest of my life on that stuff).