Please hear me out guys because I’m really not feeling good tonight. The Xanax and Clonazepam use is getting worse I’m trying to type as best as I can and I feel ashamed for relapsing🙏

Do you guys ever feel like there’s demons in your head tempting you do to things you shouldn’t? Because I feel like I can’t get him out of my head👿 Am I going insane?? Or is it just the fact that our I’m using way too much and my tolerance is going up too high?

I’m diagnosed with PTsSD, depression, and anxiety disorder, and insomnia. But I was not like this in jail when I’m sobered up expect for the short and long memory loss over the few years of using since 20 no one seems to understand me and I don’t know guys is this the end?

The place I’m staying at has been noticing a lot and I DONT want to go back to jail/warrant out for me I’m a good hearted guy❤️ and I’d take the shirt off my back for my family or people close to me it’s just VERY hard to come off and it’s getting worse. If you take the time to read i’d appreciate a lot.