Ive had mental health issues (undiagnosed) for probably 3 years, i started using valium for anxiety but i took a break and worked on dealing w it sober

I started taking it again after almost 3 months sober because i had a breakdown (not cus of anxiety), since then ive been using it the past couple days but this time more to cope w my emotions and a lot of other stuff (dont wanna call it depression cus im not diagnosed)

I just hope it gets better, for 3 years and as long as i remember life is just me surviving to the next day the only time i feel truly happy n like a real human is when i ocasionally talk to my ex who doesnt even like me anymore and its been like 2 years since we broke up lol