what's up.

i'm usually a drinker, but it's been real excessive with it since starting my new job. with the increased drinking i've been fucking up at work and home and i've been getting really sloppy

thankfully i haven't drank in a couple days, but i with how "overtime" my brain always works, i still feel the craving for a drink.

i tried out some kpin a year or so ago and i fell in love with it. just the feeling of being next to a guy i liked and not having to worry about getting super sloppy, and just feeling nothing but zen was really nice.

but that was a while ago. one of my old coworkers has contacts with a dealer who can score me 10 2mg Xanax bars and i'm considering copping when i get paid

i usually use alcohol when i just want to decompress and chill. listen to music, doomscroll my social medias, and to release inhibitions.

would it make sense for me to switch to benzos?