I've posted about this topic before but today starts the day and I still haven't gotten the best answers dosage wise.

I'm tapering Ativan because I realized it doesn't do shit for anxiety, just helps panic attacks. Taking it daily was a stupid idea because now I just feel worse, and when I went from 0.5mg 1x daily to 0.5mg 2x daily I really feel it fucked me more. It's like I take my dose, feel nothing, get anxious a few hours before the next dose, take it, feel nothing. That's my daily anxiety treatment with Ativan.

When I started:

10, 0.5mg tablets monthly as needed for panic attacks October - November.

30, 0.5mg tablets monthly. 1 a day. December 1 - February 1

30, 1mg tablets monthly. Split in half 0.5mg 2x daily. February 1 - March 1

60, 0.5mg tablets monthly. 2x daily. March 2 - presumably April 2nd.

Currently: 0.5mg at 12PM and 12AM, I've been experimenting eyeballing like 0.4mg or 0.3mg a couple times for last few days to replace one dose.

my doc is not good with this, they essentially leaving it up to me because they think I should just quit cold turkey or fast but I am not about to fuck my life up when I could just be super cautious

I would like to use the 60 0.5mg I have RN to taper off by the end of the month if possible, but if people think I should go another month or two I'm somewhat willing. My problem is my anxiety is mainly health anxiety and I am always feeling my HR and like I can take a small dose of Tylenol or ibuprofen and get side effects. My anxiety is so bad. The panic attacks cause damage to my muscles bad. But I want to get off. But reducing the dosage is difficult. Please anyone who is decent knowledgeable with taper can you suggest how I do this? Even when I do 0.4mg instead of 0.5mg I get more anxiety to a very close point of panic. I want out ASAP though. I get worried I will have a seizure constantly even if it's an irrational thought. Blinking lights on TVs or phones make me get scared and I feel weird and I think it's overthinking but still I wasn't like this before Ativan.

Thanks in advance for any suggestions or help.