I have ADHD and sometimes I have gone into psychosis due to being a dick. Taking Alprazolam or Clonazepam have brought me back to earth and shown me the hell my mind and body had created. So, I'm glad to always have them on hand as an SOS. As I said in a comment earlier, I'm not addicted to them, but I did get dependent on Clonazepam (realized when I went one week without).

Don't ask me why, but when I talked to the doc about tapering off Clonazepam I somehow left his office with a script for 3 boxes of 2mg Alprazolam 🤣🤷. I was scared to take it, but that hit of dopamine you get at the beginning, wow. I felt like the man!

Now, as science shows, that passes and my prescribed dosage doesn't do much now apart from bring me back to earth when anxiety hits. This is obviously the true purpose of the medication; not to feel high. Yet, Alprazolam is growing on me and I need to take control now before it's too late.

Have you guys ever had this bittersweet experience? Which benzo was/is it and what's your story?