I dunno, kinda just feeling mentally fucked, and I guess I’m just fucking sick of feeling so alone. Thing is, the loneliness only ever seems to get worse when I’m around other people, kinda just given up on trying to find friends or have relationships anymore cause I usually just feel alone and numb. There was only one person who didn’t make me feel that way, but she rejected me, and then I let my shitty mental health slowly fuck up whatever was left of our friendship and now she has shut me out completely for the past 3 years, and I still can’t fucking get her out of my head. I’ve tried therapy and medications and even that TMS shit, and it does fucking nothing, I still just feel more alone when I try to date or make friends, and it also just feels fucking toxic to lead girls on by making them think I’m not completely hung up on someone else.

Anyway, I guess that’s what brings me here, I guess I’m still just feeling fucking horny and it’s been years since I’ve been touched, so I guess I’m just aching for some kind of attention, and this is a hell of a lot less complicated than having casual sex or whatever. So I guess I’m kinda just looking for a dirty chat with someone who’s ok with me being all fucked up, but I guess I’m also hoping to find something that feels a little more… I dunno, human, than most of the chats I normally have on here? I dunno, I guess I just feel like chats on here normally boil down to just cumming together and then ghosting, and I guess I kinda just want a chat that feels like we’re not just completely using each other, that we’re human beings who need some intimacy right now, even if it’s fucking complicated for me. I dunno, probably a shit pitch, but I guess if you’re interested in whatever this is, let me know.

Also, bonus points if you’re a hot tattooed goth girl or e-girl, cause I guess I’ve always had a type and that’s very much it.