I have a short happy music story to tell with a good bit of warm Brian Wilson energy to it. I hope it brings you a little dash of sunshine.

After three weeks struggling without them I finally got more "ADHD meds" and indulged a bit dosage wise and it felt fantastic that I could finally focus on things I wanted to focus on, and I spent about 5 straight hours playing a cheap crappy 4 octave late 80s synth with like 10 total fantastically low quality patches my friend found thrifting for 20 dollars that through the machinations of life is currently under my stewardship last night in the blanket fort I live in in my mom's garage using the shitty synth trumpet sound to build avant garde sustained 2 part through 8 or 9 voice jazz cluster chord barbershop-esque arrangments of "Killing me softly" in various slightly flat keys like C minor D minor and G minor (and the song regardless of which version you listen to because there's a bunch has a fantastically cool chord progression because the key modulates really cleverly by a fourth or fifth between the verse and chorus I love cool chord progressions that are mostly what you would expect but then that extra sparkle turns it into something special Elton John has a lot of those too like goodbye yellow brick road or Benny and the Jets or of course tiny dancer which has a really cool pre-chorus modulation and Tower of Babel although that's almost in Prog Rock territory

Anyway it felt fantastic to be able to intensely focus on an artistic pursuit and actually be doing what I want to do not just trudging through the usual depressed andhedonia. I forgot how much I really can enjoy experimenting with dozens of different voicings and voice leadings for chords and exploring things from a non-singer-songwriter composition perspective. Felt great to just be absorbed in the creative musical process. And it was the most joy I've had composing in possibly a few years. It was magical :)

Thank you for reading. That is my rambling m*th fueled music story for the evening. I'm not saying I'm on Brian Wilson's level, but I definitely felt that whole sense of just evaporating into the music and the beautiful chaotic symphonies of dissonance and harmony intertwined as one in a beautiful infinitesimal glimpse of the Divine. Drink lots of water, spread peace love and joy, and have a fantastic rest of your day!