[Punishment] [Spanking]

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i did some things overboard yesterday. Not one, but a few which led to the punishment i got today.

Long story short, i was punished because i did not take good care of my well-being. As Mistress' property, i should have known better than to 'check' all the boxes and not realize it until i felt lightheaded and also until the short story (which made me neglect my duties as a slave) that i was reading reminded me of the importance of being wary about my well-being.

Well, the short story also ended me up in a subspace so i could not stop beating myself up for neglecting my duties and going overboard. i knew i had to confess to Miss but i did not want to make it sound rude or that i was just seeking attention. i felt uneasy and restless while contemplating whether i should confess and ask Miss for a punishment.

(For the record, over the past 5 years of our relationship, the punishments i have ever asked for were more like bratty ones that seek attention or like the ones where i broke the rules so it was not an easy step for me and my brain was kind of fog not knowing how to word it better.)

So i took some time to organize my confession text (i sent an extremely long text) and mustered my courage to send it out. i was expecting the worst at that time for not being a dutiful slave. i also made sure i did everything else i was supposed to before bed. (due to the time-zone difference, i had to get to bed earlier than usual cause i have an early morning the next day.)

After reading my confession text, Miss thought that punishment was in order as well to remind her slave. And so tonight, Miss executed her punishment.

My punishment was to spank my ass ten times using the Crop and thereafter write five lines 'i will take better care of myself' (and repeat 5 times). So in total, i had to spank myself 50 times on the ass using the crop (my ass is still stinging as i type) and write 25 lines.

i got the Crop and stripped my panties leaving my bare ass. Then, i got on all fours, with my right leg slightly forward so that i could give better impact. It was a punishment, after all, so i had to spank hard. Plus points, the Crop has a bite at the edge so it hurts a lot more.

Getting myself ready in position, i swung the Crop as hard as i could and landed the first spank on my bare ass. i bit my lips hard trying not to whimper in pain because it was late at night and i did not want anyone to hear the smacks or the whimper. Again, i landed the next strike on the same ass cheek trying to keep count of the strikes (i tend to forget how to count when i get spanked). i could feel my ass burning and my breaths getting heavier. Each spank hurts so much i am mentally reminded not to repeat the same mistake again and to never neglect my duty as her slave.

After ten spanks, i grabbed my pen and began writing my lines. '1. i will take better care of myself. 2...' and so forth until i did five lines. The sting on my ass as i wrote my lines reinforced the importance of my duty and reminded me strongly to not do it again. it hurts so much i was practically having my ass up high in the air, face on the floor, writing the lines. i did not want further pain from it by sitting down and writing them.

After completing five lines, i went back in position continuing the hard spanks on my other ass cheek. For each round, i tried to alternate between the ass cheeks. My mind was focusing on just a few, the collar on my neck reminding me that i am a slave, the spankings that i am doing reminding me why i end up being punished and the lines written while my ass burns reinforcing a stronger reminder of what i should have been doing.

(and still in my collar as i am supposed to keep it on at all times) i took a picture of my very very red ass (you could see bumps at some parts too) i might likely bruise a little tomorrow too, and the lines to Miss. After sending it, i thanked Miss for the punishment and the reminder. i will not repeat the same mistake again (i will try not to. it's sometimes difficult when you get distracted or carried away by another thing. which also means that my focus should always be on my collar i.e., the fact that i am an owned slave).

and here i am, journaling that i have been punished while my ass still suffers from the pain and the lines i wrote repeat in my head over and over again. Just a side note to everyone out there, do take good care of yourself all the time!

Well, it's a different kind of post this time. i wanted to journal this so that i will always remember why i was punished. But i do hope that you enjoyed reading it. If you have any comments/thoughts, my pm is always open. Thank you for reading!