So I (27f) love my bf (31m). I feel like I have a hard time expressing it. Out of the sheets he loves doing almost everything for me and I like that.. but It also makes me feel like I can't do things myself bout had a fight with him the other day on wanting to rearrange stuff in the house he pretty much said I was weaker than him and that i should just go sit down.. fight was over a piece a furniture I owned before I met him its heavy yes but ive moved it before.. anyways.. I in the household take a more figuring everything out approach to things.. i designate the finances and the bills and food for the week.. etc.

In the sheets i go back and forth on wanting pain and sometimes i don't.. sometimes 1 hand spank sets me back a bit.. other times it helps but i never can figure myself out.. sexually im a brat and a bit more of a bottom but i get embarrassed to be naked sometimes even around my bf who ive lived with for more than a year. I love the idea's of being tied up and helpless however.. bf won't even try to tie me he just get frustrated with the rope.. He gets really turned on when the handcuffs come out. Also it seems like almost everything can be a turn off for me on top of that i have adhd. My bf is a switch normally as soon as 1 of us gets off we are done. He takes about 30mins to an hour.. i used to never get off but with him i have but not really that often.

Sometimes i wish he would just take me and use me. Put my headphones turn on some porn (like voice asmr) or say some stuff like it.. blindfold me. tie me up make me helpless put a vibrator on my clit. Leave me for a while and then come back and use me and plug me up when not in use. I honestly just don't want to think or be responsible.