I've been in the scene 2 years online and 1 year IRL. I'm not sure what I'm into is quite BDSM but I'm an adventurous player and voyeur/ exhibitionist. I just ended my first kinky relationship which was very fun in that area. I became much more in touch with my dom/sadist side and we had perfect chemistry in the bedroom but our personalities and lives clashed horribly after a month or so. I question over and over, finding a balance between crazy in the bedroom and sane out. I've left the local scene again yet I know it's a big part of who I am.

I'm trying to find the dynamic that will work for me, I decided against poly then a married women found me. It did NOT work. Relationships a hard enough to find and I have problems being alone then to add in 20 kinks and the fact I want to practice non-monogamy in a rural state leave little room for other criteria to look for in a match.