Fiance cheated on her ex of 4 years, split them up. Ive cheated previously too. I know from experience its like a drug stronger than herion or cocain and addictive for life after the first time. I learned my lesson but still watch porn of cheating all the time.

Last night we did a Dom/sub session limited to her learning her body and likes by trying any toy or sex poaitions except we experimented with her being Dom.... anything she wants. She immediately went into role play of cheating with 2 guys at once DP her V. Me and her are trying to get pregnant. So I thought, "ok shes got a cheating kink". I personally never wanted to ask anyone to do this roleplay because I know to me its like getting a taste of a ddug ive been a recovering addict of for 7 years.

for clarity we had about 5 dildos we own of various sizes. In this scene, each one represented a different man, had a name, 1 black dildo was named tyrone, one was steve, etc.

A) it seemed hurtful that while us actively getting pregnant and her having a chance to play with any toy or any position, she opted instead for full blown cheating scene of 2 dicks at one in her competing to get her pregnant, with the added kink im being bred and who knows who the daddy is. Then she would keep asking each "man" (differenr dildo) by name to fuck her again to get the best baby and so no one would know who the daddy is.

b) shes never mentioned a cheating kink until last night

c) She asked me to get in there and breed her too with another 2 "guys", (tripple penetration) which I did but didnt cum... then she kept asking for other "men" and said one of them wasnt good enough because his dick wasnt big enough (im 6", he was about 6.5") and so he got eliminated, and she didnt tell me Im not in the rotation anymore but didnt ask for me but the 1 time...seemingly having eliminated me too, then kept asking for the 8 or 9 inch dildos to "cheat" with... and settled on one and came and fell asleep. when normally if we use a larger dildo than me.. we always finish with me fucking her last and she cums super hard.

d) Once ahe zero'd into her cheating lover she let breed her over and over and was done, she fell asleep and I never was asked or got a chance to fuck her myself.

e) our "dom/sub" isnt a serious one... its more, who is taking the lead running a scene than actual the traditional im the dom/sub. So A)ive never been her sub before and B) we have no shame or degredation play, or slave master, or anything like that.

Theres a lot of insecurity here on my part. The parallels to our real life where shes really trying to have a baby with me is killing me. Like a normal role play of cheating would be one thing but saying things like I want the condom to bust, I want all of them to breed me so the best man can make my baby and then talking about not wanting anyone to know whos the daddy, eliminating the average guys, me included... and then ending up never even actually us having sex. Damn. Shes never really done BDSM before, so shea not like a master scene maker so this was juat straight from her own imagination.

It makes me wonder if theres anything to worry about in real life. If this is how she really looks at things or if she really has this temptation to do these things.

This was just wild.

i also want to knoq if scenes lkke this are too risky to do that curiosity and fantasy would be ao reinforced the thought may happen to try it for real

on the other hand i thought about dressing up different and texting as if im a different guy and having a secret meet up where its all fantasy... we meet and I give a false name and breed her... pretending Im not me and role play shes with a stranger to get her fix and not have some missing kink she has going unfulfilled