first time posting so any advice on this is greatly appreciated as well.

About me- Living in Bay Area I’m 6’3 slim build l attractive well hung male that has no real world Experience in the BDSM world

So a little backstory, in my 36 years I’ve spent most of those years in long term Somewhat vanilla relationships I think is the right term. Nothing really super kinky or Fetish based at all just average three times a week or so Sex Until my last girlfriend who I was with up until about two years ago, She was a bit kinky and like to play with toys and a few times she forced me to put on some of her underwear during sex she thought I look hot in them. Fast forward now about two years later And ever since our break up, I kind of been I guess i would call a crisis of Character. After we separated, she left some of her clothes behind and a few of her toys and I experiment a little and found that I get super Hot dressing up and I would start experimenting with the toys. I went on WebCam a few times and found that I really like being told what to do, especially things that I would normally never do or say yes to my previous years. I’ve looked into that kinky lifestyles and certain terminology, and even tried to reach out to a few communities, but I’ve never found answers I’m looking for or anybody really willing to experiment with me so I’m kind of at a loss for what I’m feeling. I guess my problem or issue is I don’t know what I should be looking for or the type of person that I am becoming. With the things that I have mentioned in mind, I don’t know if I am leaning towards slave or submissive or sissy or maybe that I just like different kinks I feel like I would like to be dominated, and I have thought about even possibility of being with a guy, but I don’t necessarily find guys attractive so any play in that area could easily just be A female with a strap on, since I find women attractive.

What I’m looking for- Well, I guess that they’re in lies the problem. I feel like I’ve gone as far as I can go with self exploration And feel like I need some real world experience and another person to help me in the next stages of figuring out what I like. A dominant mistress, perhaps or a woman with a pegging fetish or a male female couple or maybe just even somebody with personal experience and advice that they can give me but it’s been over two years and I haven’t been with another person because I’m confused on what to pursue in a relationship not to mention, being shy, and not knowing how to bring up the topic at all in a normal way I thought this might be my best bet on how to proceed basically looking for somebody that would like to explore with me. I feel like I’m super kinky now and willing to try anything just about once or even twice I’m pretty fun to be around 420 friendly like anything outdoors and I’m super horny all the time now open to advice or meeting somebody in person especially. message me if interested got lots of pictures From experimenting with cross dressing and the one thing I do know is From my past, I love going down on girls and if I can make you cum, I wanna do it over and over again I’m a pleaser by nature. I kind of feel like a block of Clay waiting to be introduced to something I haven’t experienced yet and molded into a different person. it’s affecting my ability to connect with anybody on a sexual level I guess because I don’t know what I want or like. When I think about a fantasy involving all of this, it feels like it would be super hot to meet somebody and almost he forced into trying fetishes or tied up and used . Well, if anybody makes it this far thanks for reading and hit me up if you’re interested or have any words for me..