An unspoken wish.

Can't bare to live, to scared to die, I wish I could just close my eyes and say goodbye, To all the world the caves dug deep and mountains high, to trees and seas and memorys, my friends are too few to carry my coffin, so I wright these words lest i be forgoten, for I'm to old to cry, to young to die, to weak to try, can't move forward can't go back, like a train that's rusting on the track, why can't I have a heart attack, and slowly drift off to sleep, to dream for ever in the cold dark deep. So to the broken bottle I go to drown my desire and wash away an unspoken wish. I light a spark and suck on smoke, and with shaking hands I tie the rope. I hang my hope apon that line, so that I may one day end my time, when I'm brave and can bare to die. But what's my choice i can't yet say, I did just live another day, but the idea of tomorrow keeps me up. So should I take the drop and stop? But what comes after I know not, I hope its nothing I pray this is all I got, so I ask forget me not.